Back to work

This week I went back to work.  I was filled with mixed emotions.  I was excited on the one hand to get back into routine and have dedicated time to get work done instead of squeezing it in during feedings, when kiddos are napping and late at night.  On the other hand, I enjoyed the chaos and challenge of being a stay-at-home mom and the fulfillment of seeing Carmen and Max interact.  I was fortunate to have more than three months of leave and the opportunity to have plenty of one:one bonding time with Max, which I certainly cherished. I will miss him sleeping on my chest for hours at a time and sitting together on the couch singing and making funny faces.  But, I am lucky.  Lucky that I have a job that allows some flexibility so I get to be 'working' mom on Monday's (when Carmen and Max are with Grandma Skurski) and Wednesday's (when Max is with Grandma and Carmen is at daycare) and 'stay-at-home' mom on Tuesday's, Thursday's and Friday's.  The challenge for me is trying to be 'super' mom.  I just can't seem to get everything I want to done in the time I want to do it.  I know life is a balancing act with give and take and I'm learning that valuable lesson more and more everyday.  I'm just trying to be the best mom I can be. So, for now, I'll try and settle for 'keeping my head above water' mom.